Why I love Jacob but am NOT Team Jacob and other canon ramblings…

Written by Pemberly Rose

When I first read Twilight I fell in love with a boy. A fictional character at that. Sure Edward’s great and all and Rob does a great job playing him in the movies but I’m not talking about Edward here. I’m talking about that other guy, yeah Jacob. Now I’m not Team Jacob personally. As much as I love his character I could not see him with Bella long term. He’s sixteen and has responsibilities, duties that tie him to La Push whereas Bella is an 18-year-old young woman.

Would they have dated if things had gone differently in that last third of New Moon? Yes, definitely and for a while they would be happy together. Then over time things would begin to unravel as 99.99999% of all relationships do. Especially since one is still in love with someone else.

However with that said, I think it’s important to look at the big picture here. Whatever your opinions maybe on Renesmee it’s clear that SM had/has big plans for her and her crazy eclectic family.

Now by the time I got to Breaking Dawn I really, really wanted Jake to find someone to help him get over his Bellabsession (<–yes I know I made that up). Even for the briefest flicker of a moment I thought SM was going to put him with Leah Clearwater which I wouldn’t have objected to either (but you’ll never catch me reading a Blackwater fic just sayin’). When we get to the chapter where he runs off from the Cullen House or crypt as he calls it we see him look for his imprint, watching the faces of every girl he sees in that park, even speaking to one named Lizzie who’s pretty, knowledgeable about cars, and clearly flirting with him. In that scene I really felt sympathetic to him. He didn’t want to think about Bella anymore. He didn’t want to have these emotions that were ripping him apart any longer and I can’t really say I blame the guy.

Then something happened when he came back. Bella went into labor not long after and Renesmee was born rather violently (and that’s putting it nicely). Jacob assumes Bella is dead and in his blind rage at himself and at the baby for subsequently ending Bella’s human life he goes downstairs to kill “it”. A few brief plotting moments pass and he locks stares with the hybrid offspring. He imprints in that moment and not one word of it is creepy, sexual or “pedophilia” as many readers have erroneously perceived. It’s not an easy concept to understand at first. At times it can even seem like brainwashing because the wolf had no choice in the matter. However, I pose the question to you… Do we have complete control over who our hearts choose to love?

My answer to that is a resounding no, we don’t. Sure we can choose who to hang out with, who to date, and what have you. The heart wants what the heart wants. As someone who’s read the series several times over, there’s a heavy theme of fate, in all four books. From Bella’s choice to move in with her father, to her argument with Edward to give her a real honeymoon before her change, and even to Jacob walking down those stairs after the birth… it’s clear that fate is a big part of the lore in the saga even though it’s never mentioned explicitly.

I don’t know. Maybe I’m wrong, maybe we’re all wrong but this is just how I see it.

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